Monday, March 29, 2010

A haircut, birthday party and fun at the park

So its Tuesday and this blog is dated for yesterday. I started it yesterday and for some reason I was unable to upload my photos so I put it aside with all intentions of finishing it last night...WELL are evening did not go as planned. SS started throwing up around 10:30 until 4 this morning and Hamp woke up around midnight screaming until about 5:30. Needless to say not the evening that we had planned so I never finished my blog. SS is doing better not more throwing up and I am praying this bug stops with her. Hamp...well not sure what is wrong with him. I took him to see the MD and he has fluid on his ear...nothing new...but it is not infected....just praying for a better night tonight.

So now for the blog that I started it is!!

We had a wonderful time together as a family this weekend. Since I am working some now I have worked a couple of weekends and having this one free with Scott and the kids was wonderful. We did not do anything too exciting but spending time together is always fun!
So Scott has been talking on and on about Hamp loosing some of his hair. It really drives him crazy that he has that hole in the back of his head that all babies get and that he lost all his hair on one side from the way he sleeps at night. I hear about this constantly and about how much he wants to cut his hair. Well his wishes came true Friday. You know how people tell you to pick your battles....this is not one I felt was worth picking so Scott shaved Hamps hair Friday. I was a little sad bc I LOVED the fact that my little man had hair but there was part of me that agreed he was loosing quite a bit of it. Hamp did really well but now is my bald little man.

The finished product and a proud daddy!

We spent some time outside letting SS draw on the driveway...figured that was better than the dining room table she got caught drawing on the other day!!

Sat morning we went to my favorite place for breakfast and SS enjoyed an egg and cheese omelet and grits and I enjoyed sinful blueberry pancakes!!Mmmmmmm

We got some yard work done while the kids were napping and Sat night went to my parents to celebrate my dads bday. We had a wonderful time with family and Poppy let Addi and SS run off some energy outside. Hamp was in a great mood all night and smiling for everyone.

Sunday was pretty low key. We went to church and then enjoyed yummy Mexican with a friend. SS will tear up Mexican these days...chips, cheese dip, guacamole dip and cheese quesadilla, bean dip and sour cream was her meal. I swear her belly looked like it was going to pop when we left. She was entertaining the table behind us the entire time. She would turn around and say "hey" "bieee"..aka bite..she would offer them everything that she had!

So now its Monday...this kids are down for a nap after spending some time with Poppy and Grammie at the park. While we were there I tried to get a few pics of Hamp in the grass...SS decided it would be fun to climb on top of him....while she said "babee, babee, babee."

Hamp took it well and never screamed!!

Well that was our weekend...looking forward to a better rest of the week than the way it started!

I see that I did receive an award for my blogger friend Jennifer
This is the award:

The rules for this award are:
1 -- When you have received this award you must thank the person that awarded you the award in a new post.
2 -- Name 10 things that make you happy
3 -- Pass this award onto 10 bloggers and inform them

Jenn thank you so much. You have done so good with your blog and I only hope to be like you when I grow up!!!:) I love reading it and keeping up with you and the you!

10 things that make me happy:
1. My Savior who gave his life for me...without him I am nothing
2. My husband...he is my rock and my best friend
3. My children...the most precious I love them!
4. My family...they all mean the world to me and I am thankful for our close relationship
5. Aerobics...step that is...miss it like crazy and wish I had more time for it
6. My praise and worship music....brings a peace over me
7. chocolate....oh goodness I love it
8. a clean house and nice yard..honestly that can make or break my attitude sometimes
9. shopping...its therapy
10. My friends...I have the best

Bloggers to be awarded:

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Take me away

The kids are down for a nap and I am staring at dirty clothes, toys, anything and everything sitting on my dining room table, a dirty bathroom and have decided I want to be somewhere else right now. My house needs cleaning so bad and I just have not had the energy to do it. Hardwoods are great but the feeling of a piece of dirt on my foot puts me in a rotten mood...ask Scott he will agree!! So needless to say I want to be drinking this

Align Center
while someone does this to my feet

this to my back

and this to my face

then when my massage is over I can end it with another glass of this!!

Calgon, red wine whoever or whatever.......TAKE ME AWAY!!!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Way Behind

We will start off this blog with a shout out from Sarah Scott as she takes a break from "ree" aka reading!
Oh how I have slacked with this blog the last several weeks. I just cannot find the time to sit down and write like I want. Yes I have more days that I am home with Hamp and SS but when they are down for a nap I want to nap:)!
I want to start off saying that I really appreciate all the prayers for me with my job and being away from the kids. I will say that my job is getting better. The Lord has really helped me understand some of the personalities that I work with which has made my days there much easier. I worked Sat and Sunday and my shift was to end at 730...however the weekend was crazy and both nights I did not leave until around 9..which means that I did not see the kids from Friday night until Monday morning. It was hard but I kept telling my self that this week I am home with them all but 2 days. I am really trying to look at all the positives of this job and not focus so much on the fact that overall its not where I want to be. The kids were home all weekend with super that always puts my mind at peace. He does such a wonderful job with them and SS loves time with her daddy. Keep praying for me please but know that your prayers have already started to work...thank you thank you!
There is not to much to report from the Whitfield house. Each day is filled with diaper changes, feeding, crying, laughing, napping, Bar-eee and more!!!
Hamp is growing like a weed and I swear sometimes I could just eat him he is so adorable. SS makes us laugh all day everyday. She says some of the funniest things and her little personality is great. She is a little drama queen and heavens the child is hyper. My mom tells me that watching the 3 grandchildren on Wed is not hard...but the only thing that makes her tired is all the energy that SS has.
I was telling Scott today that I feel like I use to be able to leave SS for a min or go and run to the bathroom or to another room in the house. I could walk away and not worry that she would get in to anything...different story now. She is coloring on the carpet, hardwoods and her now. Twice I heard Hamp cry and turn around to see her trying to feed him juice from her cup or stuffing her toothbrush down his throat as she says "teeth mommy teeth." I remind her very quickly to not do that and that HE HAS NO TEETH!!!:) Besides if he did have teeth don't share your toothbrush that is gross...well that confuses her bc all I am trying to teach her lately is TO share...poor child she is so confused!
This is a pic of SS showing me where her teeth are!

Now she is showing me where her ear is!

Here we are pretending to floss our teeth!

Hamp is cooing all the time and laughing. I will have to admit that boy loves his momma..not bragging or anything..Scott will agree with me he is very attached to me right now but I love it. Hes my little man. He is on an antibx for ear infection #2. Last week he was really not feeling well..fussy, pulling at his ears and not eating at all but now that he has been on his antibx he is back to his normal appetite. We put him in his jumping johnny for the first time last week and this is the first look we get...

then the look went to this...

Needless to say he did not really know what to think so we put SS in it...yes she is way to big for it...she loved it though she was swinging herself all around...I was waiting for her to pull the ceiling down with her!
Hamp LOVES watching TV. That is something SS never cared about until around 14 months old but Hamp will watch it all day...this is him this morning watching Dinosaur Train!

I mean really don't you just want to kiss those cheeks.
Here is 1 more pic of my sweet man...enjoy it and enjoy your week. I am looking forward to Poppies (my dad) bday and a weekend spent with the family!

Happy Tuesday!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

I "heart" Thursday

I am participating in this weeks I "heart"... at You and Me Plus Three. Go there now to add yours and read others!!

Happy Thursday!!
I decided to do this "I heart Thursday" thing bc lately I feel like I have not focused on the "good" things in my life and all the many things that I have been blessed with! Thanks Jenn for the idea!

I "heart" that the Lord loves me through times that I doubt him

I "heart" that my husband comes home for lunch to see us

I "heart" now being able to sleep on my tummy

I "heart" when Hamp smiles

I "heart" the sound of SS saying "Mommy"

I "heart" 100 calorie popcorn...that's my new" heart"

I "heart" a little bit of coffee with my cream and sugar:)

I "heart" step aerobics and miss it so bad

I "heart" that I have friends that I have known 15+ years and we still remain close

I "heart" my family

I "heart" the tanning bed..I know I shouldn't

I "heart" being completely covered with blankets at night when I sleep

I "heart" that SS and Hamp have a dad that would give the world for them

I "heart" the smell of Clorox

Have a great Thursday..Im off to take a nap ..I "heart" that too!

Friday, March 5, 2010

I trust you Lord...I think??

I know I can I say "I think" when saying "I trust you Lord"...well that's pretty much how I feel right now. Scott would tell you my emotions at the moment are due to the visiting Aunt but I know they are real:)!
So I am sitting at this computer needing to get some things off my chest. I have been working at my new job all day..Picked up Hamp from my mom n laws at 8, SS is with her grammie(my mom) and I am enjoying a cup of coffee. Yes, its 10:30 at night but this is my dinner!
Why is my heart heavy today? Why did I come home from my 1st day at my new job yesterday and cry like a baby as I held my children? Why did I feel such a sense of guilt last night when I got home? Why did I feel that I had abandoned my children? SS and Hamp woke up and mommy was not there but I am here now. Is this how all working moms feel?
Let me go back to before SS was born. My "work" life was what I wanted. I worked 5 days a week with an amazing doctor and was happy as can be. SS came along and I wanted to be with her more but still needed to work. My boss was able to work with me and I was able to spend every Monday and every other Friday home with SS. Those days meant the world to me. Financially it was a cut for us but I would not have given those 2 days up for anything. I felt like I had my cake and could eat it too...a great job and time with SS.
Then I find out that I am prego with Hamp. Along with excitement came the reality that a decision would have to be made regarding my job. I knew that I could not put 2 children on my mom and mom n law every week all week and I didn't want to do that. I wanted to be home more with them but also needed to work.
I spent months praying about this entire situation and felt like I could not make it work in anyway. You may ask why I tried so hard to stay at a job but I truly loved my boss and all the girls that I worked with. These people were my family and I did not want to walk away from that. I worked for a doctor who had sacrificed a lot to let me work at a reduced schedule and had amazing relationships with the other nurses I worked with. More than anything I knew that I would be going back to the hospital...a place that I did not want to be anymore than I had to. My stomach was in knots for weeks when I knew that I had to tell my boss I would not be returning after delivering Hamp. AND...I was quitting a job with no other job at the hospital confirmed. I did not want a full time job on the floor I currently worked on PRN but there was no part time available. I picked up a PRN job at another hospital and told Scott that I would make it work. I would work enough days between the 2 hospitals to financially make it work. Scott thought I was crazy...why would I leave "a good thing" and have nothing else in place for a job. I didn't have an answer for him. I told him over and over that all I could say was I had a peace about my decision and trusted the Lord to provide for us and provide a job for me. He thought I was a little crazy (we do have bills to pay:)) but he trusted me and he trusted the Lord. Not once did he TELL me what to do ...he let me work it all out. I appreciated that.
...So its been about 14 weeks since my last day at Augusta ENT and honestly it has not seemed very real that I was not returning. Since Hamp was about 8 weeks old I have been working at one hospital here and there to get out of the house and really have enjoyed it....BUT yesterday was a different story. Reality never really set in I think ...I never actually had the mindset of what my "new life" was going to be like...that I would be getting up and going to work before the kids got up and that I would be getting home 30 min before it was time for bed.
No I don't want to stay home everyday ...I am a worker and like being out of the house doing a job that I worked so hard in school to learn...BUT I never thought that I would feel the emotions that I did yesterday. With my new job I will be home with the kids SO much more and will only require childcare 2 days a week ...isn't that what I wanted..yes!
...So all this info to say that I really feel like this is where the Lord has me..I think. I feel like the door at Trinity Hospital opened for me to get this job (I got the job while on maternity leave). I feel like I did make the right decision to leave ENT to be home more with my kids BUT I feel a little miserable right now. I started my job yesterday and the entire day wanted to be either home with my children or at comfort zone...the place I had relationships with my nurses and my boss. I had been looking forward to starting this new journey in my life...a new job and more time with my kids but all that changed yesterday. Why? Lord if this is what you want for me and I am where I need to be why am I feeling this sadness? Why am I not joyful? WHY DOES MOTHERHOOD COME WITH SACRIFICES? I did this for my children shouldn't I be rewarded for that....Im just being honest y'all but a little selfish I know. No more having my cake and eating it too. I feel like I will never have another job that I enjoyed so much..if I have to work I want to work at ENT but I cant. My children need their mommy and I know that. Lord change my selfish ungrateful heart. Help me to be thankful that I have a job that lets me help others and be a servant to others. Help me to use the time I spend with my patients to share your word and shine your light. Help my patients to see you in me. HELP ME TO TRUST YOU. To trust that this is the path you have laid for me...that you will take care of my family. Change my heart of sadness to joy. You have provided a wonderful place for SS and Hamp to be while a work and for that I am grateful. They get to build relationships with their grandmothers while I work.
Lord I feel like this is where you want me so line up my heart with that. I want to trust you..I know...I do..I want to trust you completely.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

19months and 3 months

Happy 3 months today Hampton Cole!

Hamp is growing like a weed. Precious precious precious is about all I can say about my little man. I love that little boy so much I just cant explain it..and let me tell you he loves his momma. He gets the biggest smile on his face when he sees me and I just eat it up! Its so hard to believe that it has been 3 months since he was time flies.
Hampton you are :
*15lbs(weighed you today)
*Eating every 4 hours during the day (8AM,12pm,4pm and 8pm) and drinking a 6oz bottle.
*I put you to sleep after your 8pm bottle and you will sleep until around 5:30. At that time I just put your paci in your mouth and you will sleep until 7:45 or 8.
*Wearing a size 2 diaper. You have been peeing through your diapers the last week or so and I have had to change you and your sheets in the middle of the night several times. Ive tried all the little recommendations....making sure your little weenie is pointing down..haha and I even put a maxi pad in your diaper...nothing worked. The last thing we are trying is just going up an entire size to give you more coverage...we will see how that works tonight!!
* I tried you on juice but you are not so fond of it right now...I'm still working on you.
*You are smiling and laughing at us now. Every morning I wake you up and put you on the changing table...after a few yawns you open your eyes and give me the biggest smile..what a perfect start to the day.
*Wearing size 3-6 month clothes.
*Napping 10-12 and 2-4 during the day with a cat nap about 6 to 6:30.
* You really enjoy bath time and don't mind the water on your face.

You are a growing boy and momma and daddy love you very very much. I hope you will always be a mommas boy!!

Happy late 19 months Sarah Scott
Sarah Scott you are 19 months old. We don't have a Feb 30th so we will say the 28th you turned 19 months old.

You are such a joy and mommy and daddy love love love you. You make us laugh everyday with the things that you do and say. You love your brother so much and help mommy take care of him all the time. You are a sweet big sister and mommy appreciates all your help.
Sara Scott you are:
*weighing somewhere around 22 lbs
* Still sleeping through the night going down about 8 or 8:30 BUT you now wake up about 7:15 or more sleeping until 8:30 or 9.
* In size 4 diapers
* Wearing 18 month clothes and in a size 4 shoe.
* Love to play in the bath with the "wahwer"
* Still Bar-ee's biggest fan
*You talk so much... I promise you talk more than any 19 month old I have ever met. People comment on how well you are one smart girl. Or as you would say "mart"
*You say so many words now that mommy cant even right them all down. The cutest thing that you do now is when we ask you where Jesus lives you point to you heart and say "art" is so sweet and that made mommy really proud.
* You love to read. You come up to anyone with a book and say "Reee" and sit in their lap...but after about 3 words in the book you are ready to move on to the next!

Sarah Scott and Hampton,

Mommy and daddy never dreamed we would have 2 little ones in our house over 2 years but we could not have asked for anything more exciting. Both of you are our world our sweet little angels. We love both of you more than you will ever understand. XOXO